"Conclusion of a Lie"

We stood in the rain that darkened day,
the sky pouring down on us like tears.
and she asked me, "Where do we go from here?".
I couldn't tell her the truth,
but she knew that my mind was screaming.

We went home and she cried,
I held her, told her it would be alright.
I think she knew.
She had to have known that I was lying...
even back then.

It was so dark that night,
the air so cold, yet the rain had died.
We held onto each other for warmth,
but something told me...
it was much more than that.

She whispered into my ear,
"I love you"
and I couldn't find the strength in me,
not even the faintest light, the scarcest thread,
with which to fabricate another lie.

She grew quiet in my silence,
pulled apart from me,
asked me what's wrong.
I shook my head, I couldn't take it,
got up and walked away.

"Please...", she whispered.

I turned, and one look at her...
Then my words fell from my mouth
in cascades like a river.
She stood through it all,
and a river of her own formed in her eyes.

Empty now, my sinful soul purged,
I stood in waiting before her.
No sound came from her lips,
I could only hear the wailing of her heart.
and so I turned my back...

"Goodbye."

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