Grave Mistake

I'm staring out my window,
alone in this dark room.
A storm's blown in; I'm waiting.
I know that you'll be home soon.

The rain seems never-ending.
This innocence you stole.
Replaced it with perpetual grief,
it floods always into my soul.

I hold your wrongs in retrospect,
trying to let them fall away.
Let this pass harmlessly,
change my rain to a sunny day.

My body has bled and bruised.
My soul is wounded and dark.
I wish I had the energy,
to wring the turmoil from my heart.

No, please, not again.
It doesn't matter how much I pray.
You'll take what you want and leave me alone.
You won't listen to what I say.

I won't let this continue.
I've had too much of this life.
I must break these depressing chains,
can it be done with a simple knife?

I search the house,
with release on my mind.
The clock is ticking faster,
I know I'm running out of time.

Take the blade from the kitchen drawer,
now I can be free.
Don't you know you've pushed too far,
why couldn't you leave me be?

Now I cut hard,
now I cut deep.
I anticipate for,
Death's final release.

The blood spatters down,
staining the carpet red.
I know you can't hurt me,
if I am dead.

But blood is thicker than water,
and cannot erase my tears.
It seems I've made a grave mistake,
away flies all my fears.

Realizing now what I could have done,
I crumple to the floor.
The shock of my stupidity,
I'll regret forever more.

This last mistake I'll ever make,
it's because you broke my heart.
I could have lived, but now I can't...
I broke myself apart.