"Sweet Surrender"

A blistering pain erupts in my abdominal cavity and I sink to the floor, feeling the gaze of a thousand demons focus solely on me and the evil boiling in my soul. A red light shines out of my eyes and bathes the premises in a bloody light, giving everything a sadistic shade of crimson. I feel the light grow stronger as my feelings of hate intensify, growing and augmenting to the point where I can't hold it all in anymore.

Finally, the passion pours from me in the form of an animalistic scream, drowning out all other sound. The world stops and counts to ten, screaming the individual numbers. With each passing figure the howling becomes louder, more forceful, until the entire population of the Earth has risen as one voice. Separate languages are forgotten now, and all that is known is the universal tongue...

Of hate.

The decibel level is ear splitting, and I feel my mind completely and totally overload on sound and light. My voice dies out and I fall through the floor into the world of the dead. They embrace me with open arms and tell me it will be all right... that it was good to give in. The anger, the hatred, has suddenly left me... I feel cool, open... serene.

Then this world of the devil has disappeared, and all that I can see, smell, taste... my senses are full of the experience of blood.

My eyes open and the light is so bright, the floor so cold... frigid tiles on my back, the heat of my actions on my chest.

But what has happened?

Shakily, I stand, and look at the scene that has unfolded around me. The first thing I register...

Bodies. Bodies of people I know, people I love, people I hate...

There are dozens of them, and I see the single gunshot wound in each one... then I feel the cool, strong steel in my hand.

I look down, and realize... I have killed them.

In a moment of inexplicable rage, where all the bottled emotions of half a decade blew up... I murdered.

Staring blankly at the labyrinth of bodies surrounding me, I fall against the wall and slide into a sitting position. The sound of sirens wails from outside, and my gaze turns upward, into the dull fluorescent light.

And I wait.

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